everytime i hear a success story, big or small, i become EXTREMELY hurt, to the degree of physiological symptoms. This been the case since teen.
we need fetchingly these internet sounds
while i, am here worry about hunger, somebody elsewhere is worried about the trepidation of fornication.
it's a common problem where key or ring or something fall into the drain. so, drain should be designed to prevent this in a fool proof way.
for past weeks, been watching on tweeter a very rich man travelogging his venture of sharing his wife. 1. nice to be rich. 2. am miserable.
in our society, there's a sector of people, who encourage positiveness, never criticize. I think these people are actually doing HARM.
criticize, even bitching, is necessary for healthy society. Ali, M L King, malcolm x, bobby fischer, rms, are exemplar negative forces.
some of these are now national heroes, after they are dead. When they are not dead, some are taken as criminals.
what happens to a society that avoids criticism/negativeness? you get a bowl of all positive, smiling, nice people. You get Disney Land.
human animals's got legs, of purpose locomotion. when moving to ＆ fro going nowhere, it's called dance, of purpose sexual signal.
dance, an activity of human animals, predominantly performed by female.
look yonder 'em spiders, when the male dancer failed to impress the lady, he got eaten.
the war of the sexes has been with us, down to biological bones.
to be rich, first need the willing part in willing and able. and that mean's more than mubling “yes i want”
i've logically determined 48 is still good for coding. I'm still good, still good.
Sanders is 74. Hillary = 68, trump = 69. at these ages, sometimes you pee on your pants.
it's interesting that leaders of human animals tend to be old. Age acquires power, cuz power came from dealing with other humans.
human animals need to eat everyday, and, the well-to-do demo their pretty plates everyday, like millions of them, and this is perpetual.
1 of the change that, since ~2010, everyone gives a talk, in hundreds of events/confs, and we can watch live. before, only top games can.
recall, the context here is, what all these change-the-world tech & AI actually have done to society?
living and life is just a phase, a process. A cycle of the universe. persuit of truth, justice, goal, goodness, are ephemeral deceptions.
we live a short life. (short, relatively)
normal walking speed is 1.4 meter per second, or 5 km per hour.
culture is like personality, it is invisible, yet governs your behavior at large
gymnast's retire age is ~20. boxer is 30, same for swimmer.
Adult attention deficit hyperactivity disorder
- Avoiding tasks or jobs that require concentration
- Difficulty initiating tasks
- Difficulty organizing details required for a task
- Difficulty recalling details required for a task
- Difficulty multitasking
- Poor time management, losing track of time
- Indecision and doubt
- Hesitation of execution
- Difficulty persevering or completing and following through on tasks
- Delayed stop and transition of concentration from one task to another
Megyn Kelly, smart, beautiful, strong, woman
smart women, how i love them.
The World's Most Dangerous Ideas and Absurdism
there's a thing called flesh-eating disease. eats up your flesh in matter of hours.
if you want to see HORRIFYING pics of flesh eating disease, see scifi author Peter Watts's blog. http://www.rifters.com/crawl/?cat=41 this post, to be exact http://www.rifters.com/crawl/?p=1848
flesh-eating disease, is call Necrotizing fasciitis
it is a rotting in the layer between skin and muscle. This layer is called the fascial plane.
it's fast. Once infected, say in a leg, it spreads to the whole leg with in a few hours. Typically, your leg will need to be cut off. Amputated, is the word.
here's Wikipedia Necrotizing fasciitis
Necrotising fasciitis (NF), commonly known as flesh-eating disease, is a rare infection (0.04 cases per 1000 person-years in the US) of the deeper layers of skin and subcutaneous tissues, easily spreading across the fascial plane within the subcutaneous tissue.
philosopher refuse to enter USA because of requiring finger print and photo
In a well-known case, Italian philosopher Giorgio Agamben refused to enter the United States in protest at the United States Visitor and Immigrant Status Indicator (US-VISIT) program’s requirement for visitors to be fingerprinted and photographed. Agamben argued that gathering of biometric data is a form of bio-political tattooing, akin to the tattooing of Jews during the Holocaust. According to Agamben, biometrics turn the human persona into a bare body.
[from Wikipedia Biometrics which cites from 〔Agamben, G. (2008). 〈No to bio-political tattooing〉. Communication and Critical/Cultural Studies, 5(2), 201–202. Reproduced from Le Monde (10 January 2004).〕]
Ice Cream Cones | How It's Made
dot dogs, how it's made
how eggs are made
the goal of humanity?
sometimes, watching a old 1970's movie. You see? they want what we want. And, they show what we show, things we like to see, and beautiful people. The same thing, different times.
sometimes, if you imagine, the thousands years of human humanity. Going back, starting with your grand pa, grand grand pa, grand grand grand pa.
4 generations, and that's only about 100 years. But there's several thousands years of written history.
what does it all mean?
don't know, but most of us, are concerned about having children. That is our biological programming, the only, and ultimate, goal.
so, Prince actually had a sister, Tyka Nelson, who lives in poverty, has 6 kids, and at one time had to prostitute to make a living, and was also addicted to drugs.
the secret diary of xah, stardate 20160414
few days ago, one of my teeth fell out. (it's ) It is the upper right molar. A fake one i had some decade plus ago.
that is a major blow. I haven't seen a dentist for a decade. i thought, i'll hold out till i am on track with coding again. Well, now, i imagine myself to be those national geographic photo of very old man with missing teeth.
my eye classes, is a decade old. I have near-sightedness, vision 550. Since last year, because working in restaurant, now it's full of scratches (bad mistake washing with water), to the point that, everyday, when i wake and put on the glasses, my eye would tear in about 10 min.
this has been going on for about half a year now. But yesterday, i finally went to Walmart and get myself new glasses. Eye exam, frame, glass, the whole costs $280, which is almost my 1 month's income. I shall have new glasses in about a week. Yay!
so, i went to walmart. you know? my shoes are over a decade old, but i had another pair, but it's broken in the back, such that the plastic rubs and bleeds your skin. So, since i'm at walmart, i bought this shoe. Only $12. It's, fantastic! And, i saw flashlights. I have a obsession with lighting devices. You know? today's tech, the best lighting tech is the LED. Efficiency is the aspect i'm most obsessed about. Anyway, so i saw flashlights, Walmart have these $1 each ones, and so bright, with battery included. I bought two!
but about the teeth. What you gonna do? I gather it'll cost a lot, like, a thousand or more to fix it. It's pretty bad, because now i can only eat with the weak left side, and don't know how long that'll last. I imagine i'd be eating liquid food for sustenance. Well, the plan is quickly to grab a high-paying coding job. Facebook and Google and amazon are like, beckoning me everyday, and they pay $100k+ year.
well, it's pretty sad to write these things, and it's not things i want to write out because it makes me look bad. Potential employer sees this, and will back out. Beautiful girls who are my readers , now saw this, disillusion! But, on the other hand, i have a urge to keep a log straight. I don't want to hide stuff, and i don't event want to play the marketing game. Not necessarily even the conventional behavior stuff, because, Xah tells you right now, xah's behavior is ahead of the world, by, maybe 5 or 10 years. It has been vindicated by the internet for the past 15 years or so. Gay movement and regarding porn et al in society.
asides from the money part, y'know, i'm physically more beautiful, more smart, more knowledgeable, more moral, and, more capable than most people? yeah, truth. I don't have anything else to brag about, but this, at this point of my life, flaunting the things you have, what simple pleasure and comfort of life.
well, the above are some bad news. But about last month, i realized that my life is about done (because reaching 50), so i kinda drafted about what i want to do with the rest of my life. Xah Lee Goal 2020. It's kinda a ramble, and am not sure it's realistic or even a plan or fantasy, but oh well that's how it stands now. I might modify it later.
also, lastly, you know i enjoy writing? so, i'll say something about reaching 50.
today's age, with our modern tech and all, we live up to 70 or so. But, not so just 200 years ago. For most period of humanity, living up to 50 is like you are lucky.
recently, i've looked up many stars of 80s and 90s. Majority of them looks terrible today. Extremely ugly. Like, they fucked up their life. Money made it worse. A minority, are doing very well, aged well, and live a respectable life. You don't hear about these stars anymore, but they light up the sky a generation or two before. You know? it's like, when i was younger, sometimes i hear names of stars that i don't know, such as Simon ＆ Garfunkel 〔➤see 舊夢何處尋 Teresa Teng, Simon ＆ Garfunkel ♪El Condor Pasa (1970)〕, and it's like, who the hell are they? you really have no idea, and you don't really care. Newer generation couldn't understand older generation's stuff. In the same way, i can understand, how people born after 2000 may have no idea or care about Madonna, Prince, etc.
so, you know, people get old. And, it's not news, just news to me.
and, realistically, when you reached 50, and you are not successful yet as you want to be, you are basically done for. Like, if i am writing a biography, i could just wrap up now and say, Xah Lee didn't do anything in his life. He, didn't even have children, nor wife. Done for.
so, what am i going to do?? I don't know, i can't know. Like most people, or human's behavior, i'll just live on, and whatever i guess. I'll, of course, try to be better.
the river flows, flooding past the mountains and heros, of thousands of years.
what do you do when you get old? like, reaching 50?
you quietly recede into oblivion, and die.
You become mellow, and let things go.
you know sometimes you see a bug that don't move much? you can't tell its age, but you know its old, and about to die. just like that.
except, a few rich and powerful, such as politicians, eg see those clamor for US president? But yeah, for most people, you just fade.
look up all those beautiful stars when you were young. You don't hear them now. They have faded, before you.
It is, a stage of life. You don't know until you are there.
The fear of death, is however, still there.
大江东去，浪淘尽，千古风流人物。 故垒西边，人道是，三国周郎赤壁。 乱石穿空，惊涛拍岸，卷起千堆雪。 江山如画，一时多少豪杰。 遥想公瑾当年，小乔初嫁了，雄姿英发。 羽扇纶巾，谈笑间，樯橹灰飞烟灭。 故国神游，多情应笑我，早生华发。 人生如梦，一尊还酹江月。
Palpatine: The Portrait of a Perfect Sociopath and Master Politician (video updated)
Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk
today's thing to think about is: how many things you don't know that at least a million people know?
Spooky Death of Elisa Lam
am quite spooked by this.
to understand it, first read Wikipedia Death of Elisa Lam
very interesting. Elisa Lam body language analyzed by someone at http://www.bodylanguagesuccess.com/2013/02/nonverbal-communication-analysis-2313.html
〔Elisa Lam Drowned in a Water Tank Three Years Ago, but the Obsession with Her Death Lives On By Jennifer Swann. @ http://www.vice.com/read/elisa-lam-drowned-in-a-water-tank-two-years-ago-but-the-obsession-with-her-death-lives-on-511〕
Dream: Two-Fingers Security Cam Incident
had the most weird dream.
there's this two-finger video log incident.
basically, a security camera showed that there's a footage of 2 fingers, for a few seconds, as if, someone totally inserted few seconds of clip from nowhere.
this is very strange, because, why would a burglar or otherwise computer criminal insert something of his own fingers into the security cam? Of course, because of this two-fingers video, he got caught.
i was thinking, o men, when did this incidence happen? i must have missed it on the internet. And in semi-awake status, i imagine i googled and find various news reports about it, with titles like “two-finger video mystery solved” or “two-fingers video hacker caught”. And the articles is like explaining, or the hacker in interview explaining, how he was stupid, and it was a incident that happened many years ago when he was a newbie at hacking.
and, i was aware of my semi-dream status, and thought, i'll need to find this out for real. And tried to really remember all the details at the moment.
by the time i'm up from bed, fully awake, then, thinking about the story, i know clearly it's a dream, preposterous. But, couldn't remember much of the details of the story.
〔Welcome to the Block Party: The internet after ad blocking By Casey Johnston. @ http://www.theawl.com/2015/09/welcome-to-the-block-party〕
the info in the world is not tamable. one person can ever hope to just randomly learn something insignificant as one goes.
Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind
Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind is a book by Yuval Harari first published in Hebrew in Israel in 2011, and in English in 2014. Harari cites Jared Diamond's Guns, Germs, and Steel as one of the greatest inspirations for the book by showing that it was possible to “ask very big questions and answer them scientifically”.
The book surveys the history of humankind from the evolution of archaic human species in the Stone Age up to the twenty-first century. Its main argument is that Homo sapiens dominates the world because it is the only animal that can cooperate flexibly in large numbers. Besides, the author claims that prehistoric sapiens may have committed a massive genocide, leading other homo species such as the Neanderthals into extinction. The book further argues that Homo sapiens can cooperate flexibly in large numbers, because it has a unique ability to believe in things existing purely in its own imagination, such as gods, nations, money and human rights. The author claims that all large scale human cooperation systems – including religions, political structures, trade networks and legal institutions – are ultimately based on fiction.
Other salient arguments of the book are that money is a system of mutual trust; that capitalism is a religion rather than only an economic theory;that agricultural revolution started as a promise of luxury but ended as a trap that made people’s life worse; that empire has been the most successful political system of the last 2,000 years; that money, empires and religions are the powers that are unifying the world; that the treatment of domesticated animals is among the worst crimes in history; that people today are not significantly happier than in past eras; and that humans are currently in the process of upgrading themselves into gods.
Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind
Sapiens A Brief History Humankind amazon
twitter, the ad problem and you
twitter is getting more and more aggressive with ads. Most annoying now is the auto-play video ads.
ok. today's xah edu corner: ads or no ads.
to ad or no ad, is a eternal struggle. many claim to rather pay than ads, but that's ideology talking. by statistics, human animals don't pay, unless forced.
but forced pay may not work cuz human animals want free. even if at $1 a year, you wipe out large percent of your audience
the issue is rather psychology and whole system, than individual's judgement of cost/benefits.
many micro payment companies since 1990s failed cuz nobody want to signup. micro pay protocols failed too cuz tragedy of the commons.
publishers, and services such as twitter, have this rather curious problem. You get massive users, spent lots money, but how you gonna get paid?
publishers ＆ services end up force pushing and pushing and pushing ads, and sell user data.
users, for the most part, just keep using it, and kept bitching about it, or use ad blocker.
ad blocker software writter themselves, are faced with the same issue. When popular, they sell out.
the pretention of human animals, resulted this cop ＆ robber game.
with spammers, and SEO fucks that rephrase news, as large sector of the game.
Björk ♪〈Pagan Poetry〉 🎶
lock few phD's in a room and get theory of the century?
you can't lock a few phD's in a room and expect great theory. You ends up with lunatics and suicide. Cuz human animals are not machines.
similarly, you can't force fat people to not eat, or put addicts in bondage. Result may be collapse + zombie.
for human animals, sometimes, pep talk, care, will do wonders.
from machine point of view, that means, certain vibration in medium of air, has magical effect on human animal.
lulsec, bitcoin, silk road, a wondrous novel.
Got another DMCA takedown notice. This time, it's a legit call. Nakedness — a WASP Crime
Debian Linux Founder, Ian Murdock (1973 to 2015) Killed Himself
A Clockwork Orange, page 3 (oldie)
Britney Spear as Birthing Sculpture (oldie)
A social media star, 18 years old girl, career suicide, because “it's all a lie”
she's got half a million followers, on various social websites. And, 1 post she can earn some $1400.
the following video, shows some of her paid posts.
There's a blog, titled 〈Why It's OK to Block Ads〉. See:
〔Why It's OK to Block Ads By James Williams. @ http://blog.practicalethics.ox.ac.uk/2015/10/why-its-ok-to-block-ads/〕
What a idiotic article.
I spent 30 min to write a comment, and decided it's not worth posting to. Why? then it's the same old to-ban-or-not-to-ban thing, and i even spent time to check their comment policy. And, in the end, i don't get candy except helping the idiotic essay's popularity.
Here's my comment, scathing as intended.
I concur on the correctness of your opinion, that the advertising industry spend millions to exploit psychology. Almost every big commercially run website, is designed to max ads, down to color and font choice.
But, the way they are, is because our behavior made it so. Facebook et al don't have a paid version because nobody would pay. As simple as that.
One big chuck of opinion on this issue is that “Info Should be Free.”, “Best things are free, look at air.”. But, your opinion isn't this.
I couldn't tell in a minute what site is this. Your essay, nary a citation or scientific research, and seems just a opinion piece, yet this site seems to be associated with University of Oxford? So, am i right that my attention just got robbed by a university? And what does university want? Not my money, but my intelluctual attention?
In one minute i couldn't find out who you are. Are you a professor in the area of ethics/philosophy? or student? So, one of the design flaw of this seemingly academic website/university/blog, is failing to clearly identify authors.
Now, back to ads. So, you are saying, it's ok to block ads because the industry exploit people's psychology. In fact, it's a moral obligation to block ads!!! Then, by the same token, it's ok to not pay tax because a tax system is broken? By not paying taxes, i let my government know that something's wrong?
In modern society, lots things are broken. Are we supposed to just get angry and become HULK?
I was thinking, i couldn't find a merit in this essay, and that i just wasted half-an-hour reading and commenting about it. But wait! It got us thinking, communicating, thanks to, ads!
DMCA takedown notice of Janet Jackson's wardrobe malfunction 2004 photo
Cults ＆ Religion (new index)
Going Clear: Scientology and the Prison of Belief
The Wolf of Wall Street
Jonathan G. Lebed (born September 29, 1984) is an American stock trader prosecuted by the SEC at age 15 for stock manipulation.
Lebed was the first minor prosecuted by the SEC. Between September 1999 and February 2000, Lebed made hundreds of thousands of dollars from the computer in his bedroom in Cedar Grove, New Jersey by posting in Internet chat rooms and on message boards encouraging people to buy penny stocks he already owned, thus, according to the SEC, artificially raising the price of the stock. Between September 1999 and February 2000, his smallest one-day gain was $12,000 while his biggest was $74,000. The SEC, under Arthur Levitt, prosecuted him. In 2001, Lebed and the SEC negotiated an out-of-court settlement in which Lebed forfeited $285,000 in profit and interest he had made on 11 trades without admitting any wrongdoing — allowing him to keep close to half a million dollars.
Jordan Ross Belfort (/ˈbɛlfɔːrt/; born July 9, 1962) is an American author, motivational speaker, and former stockbroker who pleaded guilty to fraud and related crimes in connection with stock market manipulation and running a boiler room as part of a penny stock scam. Belfort spent 22 months in prison as part of an agreement under which he gave testimony against numerous partners and subordinates in his fraud scheme. He published a memoir, The Wolf of Wall Street, which was adapted into a film, released in 2013. It was directed by Martin Scorsese and starred Leonardo DiCaprio as Belfort.
The Wolf of Wall Street (2013 film)
Gamer SWATTED Phenomenon (on its own page)